stop burning fossil fuels.

Respect your elders. I work with seniors as a teen volunteer, and I've noticed how some of my peers are quite disrepectful. I think the majority of kids today have lost their courtesy, grace, and manners. My parents raised me to always respect my grandparents, the late and the living, as well as older aunts and uncles and neighbors. It's taken me a while to realize that they have experienced more than we have, and even though they may not be up to date with the "new" culture, they still have so many stories we can learn from by just listening. I know values and morals fluctuate at times, but this is one I will always stand by.

Success is the measure of personal fulfillment. Every individual looks at it on a different scale, some with more or less focused achievements than others. It's a matter of satisfaction with oneself and his works.


The secret of success is to realize that the crisis on our planet is much larger than just deciding what to do with your own life, and if the system under which we live - the structure of western civilization - begins to collapse because of our selfishness and greed, then it will make no difference whether you have $1 million dollars when the crash comes or just $1.00. The only work that will ultimately bring any good to any of us is the work of contributing to the healing of the world. - Marianne Williamson

There

will

Always

be

room

for

Improvement.

Regardless of the role Time plays, I'd still be doing what I love to do, which is to learn.

I think the sincerest way to express gratitude is through Time and Patience. I know I value the time on my hands greatly, and when I take it out of my schedule to go out of the way to listen to or to thank someone else, it's the most real I'm getting.

Even if I have three finals the next day and my mom suddenly feels the need to share some life story, I'll shove my books aside and listen. Not because I'm trying to get away from  my work, but because I appreciate her so much (no mind the nagging,) that she'll always come first, ahead of my priorities.

The space between my tires and the edge of the road and that stretch to the Bay are the two kinds of spaces that matter most to me when it comes to biking. I can go hours on end with my head focused on nothing but the road, nothing but my destination. These spaces vacuum out the stress that builds up in my head and my body. They act as my natural aspirin.

Learning to "live without" is actually one of my goals in life at this moment. I'm learning to want what I have, simplify, and be satisfied.

I'm learning to live without rushing time, without regret, and without having to always be with someone.

From Philip Glass's Einstein on the Beach:

Two lovers sat on a park bench, with their bodies touching each other, holding hands in the moonlight.

There was silence between them. So profound was their love for each other, they needed no words to express it. And so they sat in silence, on a park bench, with their bodies touching, holding hands in the moonlight.

What's on my mind?

i'm thinking about school and how i'm going to pull my grades up this year while still being able to maintain some friendships that are already slipping away i sort of feel like i'm losing grasp of everything in my life even though i am firmly holding on and i think about thinking and why i do it so much and i think about trust and whether or not i'll ever be able to put my whole heart into someone else's hands again but i look back and i remember i'm only seventeen and i make mistakes and i learn from those mistakes even though letting go is the hardest part and this is somewhat like how i write in my journals because i think that organized thought is for people who've been whipped by society. this is my stream of conciousness and this is how my brain works and i stopped talking to people because i felt like our talks were meaningless rants and complaints and gaia is a really good community because i feel like i have to censor myself somewhat with language even though i spit profanities like a sailor which i am trying to work on by using more euphemisms like what the fizz and oh snap except oh snap reminds me of that's so raven, and i was never a big fan of that show i don't watch tv very often anymore because i feel like i could be so much more productive than waste away in front of a box plugged into another box i like to listen to music and think to myself. writing in this form lets me get all my thoughts out and once i'm done i go back and i highlight what i said and all the key points and everything that ever made sense in my life and i think about those thoughts and they give birth to even more thoughts and i think about my friend and how he opened up to us today and how he told me he had to see a shrink every month which i had no idea since i didn't know he abhored himself to that point which makes me want to be a better friend which is hard, since i can't even be a good friend to my best friend who i currently "have beef" with because i don't see her applying herself like i believe she can, because she is too caught up in a puppy love relationship as is my other best friend and basically i'm alone but i'm self discovering and i have never been happier in my life yet disappointed i really want to make amends with him. i'll be happy if he even speaks to me but i know him and i know that if he calls something off, then it's off for good. i don't expect anything. the only expectations i have are the ones i set for myself. and i should end here, otherwise... i'll draw up an encyclopedia of meaningless ramble which is suppose to answer the initial question:

What's on your mind?

and these are the kinds of things that boggle my head every. single. day.